THE PRACTICE OF FORGIVING INSIDE OF OURSELVES:
When we don’t forgive inside of ourselves, we hold on to anger that causes us additional suffering. A lot of the anger that we hold inside is on a very subconscious level. It can date back to early childhood experiences. It is usually a mental perception that we hold that someone “has wronged us” in the past.
We might think in our minds that we have gotten over it, but most of the times, we end up rationalizing (within our minds) without ever experiencing the actual feelings inside of ourselves (Including the feelings in our heart that we all to often protect).
When we begin to feel, we begin to heal ourselves of this anger we hold deep inside.
HERE IS THE PRACTICE:
Picture an event “in your mind’s eye” that you may find “disturbing”.
Now sit with this and feel what is going on inside of yourself.
Do not be scared of these sensations.
Now, Imagine the person you perceived has wronged you.
Now, try to put yourselves in their position.
Imagine how they themselves may be suffering for things that have gone wrong in their lives.
Imagine how they may have taken out their own anger on you.
At first, try saying the words “I forgive you” many times out loud.
Then, try to feel the process of “letting go” of the sensations of the anger within (without the use of words).
Now try to fully forgive them inside of yourself.
Picture another event “in your mind’s eye” where you feel you may have wronged another or inflicted needless suffering on another.
Can you see that many times that we do this because of our own internal suffering and it has little to do with what the other person has done
Now try to fully forgive ourselves.
This is a great exercise to start this process of healing inside of ourselves.
By feeling what’s inside of ourselves we slowly heal the inside of ourselves.
We receive the gift of releasing the poison we drink by holding onto anger within ourselves.
In the end, the only person that ends up suffering when we keep anger inside of ourselves, is ourselves.
No one else gets to share that with us.
This is why it’s very important to come to this realization.
Forgiving within ourselves is one of the greatest medications.